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I really wanna throw up. You know throw up? No.

Oke throw up itu muntah. Ya, bener banget. Sumpah gue enek banget sekarang. Bukan enek karena sakit atau hal lain semacamnya itu. Tapi gue enek sama pressure yang mangkir di dalam diri gue selama beberapa minggu ini.

Resah, gundah, gelisah banget diri gue. Resah banget pas tau uas semester 1 udh deket. Gundah banget pas nungguin nilainya. Gelisah banget pas mau terima rapot. Subhannallah. Take a breath, Lel. Calm yourself!!

Beberapa hari yang lalu gue Try Out pertama di sekolah tapi bagi gue itu Try Out yang ke seratus kali. Oke, lebay. Karena sekolah gue kerjasama bareng lembaga bimbingan belajar, Ganesha Operation aka GO, jadi soalnya itu agak gila. Jujur, gue susah ngerjainnya. Apalagi mtk. Subhannallah. 40 soal dalam waktu 2 jam dgn soal yg begitu sulit? Sungguh, gue ga sanggup.

B. Inggris, B. Indo, IPA, sih masih bisa. Tapi kalo udh mtk, gue udh angkat tangan sambil ngelambai-lambai bendera putih deh. I'm so done with Math. Hasil TO B.Ing udh keluar dan okay, gue tenang. B.Indo udh keluar jg, gue agak ga tenang. IPA udh keluar, gue ga tenang. Mtk blm keluar, dan gue sangat ga tenang!!

Emang sih TO has no right with my National Exam score, tapi gue kesel banget ngeliat hasilnya. Emang TO dari GO itu susahnya naujubile tapi itu kan mengukur kemampuan gue segimana!!! Dodol lu, Lel!! Sumpah kesel bgt deh ngeliat hasilnya!! Grrrrr.

Sekarang, mata gue berkaca-kaca mau nangis meratapi hidup sebagai anak kelas 9 yang gundah gelisah saat akan menghadapi ujian nasional. Bener deh pengen nangis banget ini :( It's like my life is hanging on a thread. I know my future is on my own hands, but I really have no idea what I'm going to be in the future :"(

Am I going to be a smart girl? Who knows? God knows.
Am I going to make my family proud? I really want to. But who knows? God knows.

Tapi, 1 hal yang pasti saat ini.

Gue harus terus belajar dan tetap percaya diri. Gue yakin kalo gue bakal lulus Ujian Nasional. Gue yakin kalo gue bakal bisa ngebanggain keluarga gue. Gue yakin gue bisa ngelakuin semua hal itu. Tapi semuanya kan ga segampang membalikkan telapak tangan. Semuanya butuh proses dan proses itu ga cepet. Tapi gue yakin kalo gue bakal bisa ngelakuin semuanya asalkan gue percaya sama diri gue sendiri kalo gue itu bisa, dukungan dari lingkungan sekitar, dan gue berusaha sebisa mungkin untuk mencapai hal itu.

Lagipula, di dunia ini hal apa sih yang ga mungkin terjadi?

A Week Full of Shitness

1 week! 1 freaking week of exams! I just passed 1 freaking week full of exams. So, I was like asfsdjgfsdgkfg, thinking that I will be face the National Exam next year. But no worries, I already passed the exam week and I am finally feeling great! :)

I wasn’t studying sooo hard like I used to be for the exam because I finally had enough of the pre-test and another courses outside the school. So I was like ‘Oh c’mon! I need time to rest. But I’m gonna do that test and walk out from the class with a big smile on my face’ and you know what, I just read my school book and listened to the music. And I ended up singing to the songs -_-

Math was so tough. So tough. 40 questions will do in 2 hours? Impossible. So, I just did about 20-30 questions and when I walked out from the class, there’s no smile on my face. I mean, who would be smiling like that after done 40 math questions?!

My friends were saying like this when I walked out, ‘hey! what’s the answer number 30?’ and ‘aaaaa I failed it!’ and ‘let’s go to the canteen. I’m starving.’ and there’s another people from another class saying, ‘Aaaah! Justin Bieber is so cute!!” And I was like ‘STFU everybody!! Math just passed and the Jonas Brothers is super cute and more talented than Justin Bieber!!” but I didn’t say it. lol.

My mood in that week:

Day 1: Exam! Come on! I’m ready for it!

Day 2: Yes! Gimme the test and I’ll pass it!

Day 3: Oh come on! I need time to rest but fine, let’s do it.

Day 4: Nooooooo! Gimme a pillow please! I’m sleepy :(

Day 5: Hell no! I need to go out from this class immediately!!

But in the end, that week full of shitness thingy had already passed and another week has come. I’d try my best on that test and only God who knows my score on those tests. Let’s hope that I will get a good score. Amen.

P.S: No offense to Justin Bieber fans :p

B-banner!

Holla!!! It's me, again ;) So yes, I already posted the story. What do you guys think about that? Is it cool or not? Just let me know! :)

Yaaa, gue ganti banner lagi. Dan akhirnya, menemukan yang cocok juga (akhirnya). Is it good or not? I don't really care. It's cool enough for me (why am I so confident?) ;) Kenapa gue ganti lagi banner nya? Ga tau. Sebenernya gue lagi bosen aja, trus iseng-iseng buka blog, eeeeh malah jadi pengen ganti banner. Yaaaa jadi ini lah hasilnya!

Haha. Well, I'm not so in the mood to post something. Mungkin cukup sekian aja kali ya? See ya!

Back Again

Holaa bloggy. Sorry for the due (again). I've been busy with all of the exams and homework :( but finally I''m back again!! Mwahahahaha

Jadi gini loh, selama sebulan terakhir itu gue 'menghilang' karena ulangan, pr, les dan hal-hal lain yg menyangkut tentang kesibukan kelas 9. Selain itu, gue juga harus nge-update stories yang di Mibba berikut dengan Polyvorenya. Ditambah lagi hal-hal yang kurang begitu penting seperti pusing dan kurang tidur-_-

Enough with the reasons, now I'm going to tell you something. Jadi, setelah membaca tweetsnya Ansi, temen sekolah, gue jadi terinspirasi untuk membuat cerita (lagi). Dia kan bikin story tentang Justin Bieber yang dipost lewat twitlonger ke twitter, dan menurut gue itu keren. Gue pun terinspirasi untuk melakukan hal yang sama seperti itu. Tapiiii, kalo gue ceritanya tentang Jonas Brothers!! Dan gue bakal post ceritanya di sini. Di blog tercinta ini-_- dan nanti gue bakal ngepost link blog ini ke twitter gue.

Kenapa gue terinspirasi dari Ansi untuk buat story? Karena gue ngeliat RTan dia dari readers tentang tanggapan mengenai story itu. Jadi gue mikir kan, agak asik juga kalo langsung ada yang ngomentarin lewat twitter, ga usah tunggu lama-lama kayak di Mibba. I think it's going to fun!

Maka dari itu sekarang ini gue lagi nyiapin ceritanya dan insya Allah, minggu depan Part 1 nya udah bisa dipost di blog ini. Amin. I really need your support, guys. It'll mean a lot to me.

Thanks for reading this post and please read my new story (hopefully) next week. Don't forget to give some comments because it means a lot to me. See ya :)

Just Got Back

holla, everybody!! I miss you all sooooo much!! :*

so, it's been a long time since I wrote my last post which was in June 2. And now, it's October 23!! Wow. Can you believe that? It's been 5 months!! 5 Months everybody!!

Well, there were a lot of things that happened to me. Family, Friends, School, and.... Guys. Guys. Yeah. Guys. Am I just saying 'Guys'? Oh yeah. Well, I'll tell you about the whole things in the next post.

So, see ya on the next post. And since now, I am officially back to update my blog! :)