Recap

HI PARTY PEOPLE!!!

Look who's back in a better mood :D Oh please don't mind my last 2 posts. I was in such a crappy mood and needed to let it all out of my chest so... yeah. Not to mention that I was on my period when I wrote that hahahaha. Okay enough about that.

What to write... what to write...

Actually I don't have any specific topic and I don't wanna rant about my weird love life like I did on last 2 post... so I think I'm just gonna tell you what happened in my life these past two weeks.

On last Thursday (July 19), I went swimming with some of my classmates. We had a lot of fun. I did about 16 laps or few before finally playing games and taking pictures with them. Because it was still around 8am (yep we got there pretty early) and empty, so we could do anything like we owned the pool hahaha. Anyway here are the pictures! Oh by the way I'm the one who wear googles in the pics below.

And on last Saturday (July 14), I had the chance to hang out with my lovely big brother. We went to Bandung Super Mall that now is changed to Trans Studio Mall in Bandung. We watched The Amazing Spiderman 3D (again). Both of us had watched it twice and we're still not bored of watching it. I mean, I really like Andrew Garfield and my brother likes Emma Stone so... we decided to watch The Amazing Spiderman 3D over Ice Age 4. Oh and we bought coffee at J.Co and talked for a while as we waited for the movie.

Coffee time at J.Co with big brother

OH!!! And on Thursday evening right after I got home from swimming, I went online and chat with the amazing best friend of mine, Amira!!! We haven't talked in a while and I miss her a lot. Thank God we had time that day to talk. And I print-screened our goodbye XD

Yeah it was already around 7pm and I hadn't took a bath yet. That's why she called me 'Miss Smelly' XD

Okay, I think that's all from me today. I don't know when I will write here again because school will start again on Monday which is in 2 days and I just started to write a new story again and I have to focus on school so... let's hope my brain won't explode. See ya!

P.S. Check this Windows Down music video by Big Time Rush. Amazing video, amazing song. Enjoy!

Bangkai

Sepandai-pandainya orang menyimpan bangkai, pasti akan ketauan juga.

Setiap gue baca penggalan kalimat di atas itu atau sekedar denger salah satu temen gue ngomong kayak gitu, hati gue itu rasanya kayak disayat-sayat. Miris banget. Hati itu kerasa sakit banget, dada sampe agak sesek juga, kuping langsung panas, dan rasanya pengen buru-buru kabur aja.

In this case, gue bukan orang yang pengen nge-skakmatin seorang lawan jenis... Well, actually, yeah. Gue emang pengen nge-skakmatin seseorang yang beberapa minggu ini lagi cukup deket sama gue dan tiba-tiba menghilang begitu aja.

I'm not gonna tell you and ramble about the whole story, tapi intinya, sekarang ini gue lagi sakit hati. Bawaannya mumet terus, pengen marah-marah, dan kadang-kadang suka pengen nangis kalo mendengar lagu tertentu. Yep, emang lebay kedengarannya, but this is true. These are what I've been feeling these days. I've also been in such a crappy mood.

Okay, singkatnya, gue itu bagaikan bangkai yang disimpan rapat-rapat di dalam lemari dan orang itu berharap kalo orang lain ga akan mengetahui gue. Dia adem-adem aja gitu, acting like I'm not existed in his world, acting like I'm a stranger, menghilang tanpa kabar selama 10 hari (yep I counted the days) dan tiba-tiba BAM! Dia tiba-tiba muncul begitu aja disaat yang ga tepat.

Jujur ini sebenernya udah ga tau mau nulis apa lagi disini, I just have to clear my mind and writing here is the first time that came in to my mind....

Dear You,

Aku saranin kamu berpikir yang jernih lagi deh. Oke you can disappear as long as you want to and not contact me for days but you don't have to cut me off like that, you know. Aku tau kamu bingung, mumet, dan lain-lain, aku ngerti banget. Tapi kamu mending pikir-pikir lagi deh. 

Kamu tau peribahasa  "Sepandai-pandainya orang menyimpan bangkai, pasti akan ketauan juga." kan? Emang kamu mau aku terus-terusan jadi bangkai? Sadar ga sadar, lama-lama kalo gini terus bakal ketauan juga. So now, I think you better think again and make your choice! 


Okay, don't mind that. Don't mind this post. You can stop reading if you want to because I'm going to stop now. See ya.

Could It Be Love?

Dear You,

We’ve been doing this for what? A few weeks now? I don’t know. I probably lost count of the days. ... Um, no. I didn’t lose count of the days. It’s been 4 weeks now. Yep, it’s been 4 weeks since the first time you text me, since I ignored you because I thought I might be doing the wrong thing, since I couldn’t think clear. 

But then, I think about it all over again today. I’m not doing the wrong thing. I’m not. I just realized that I still like you. I just buried those feelings inside because… well, you know what that is, right? Someone made me bury all the feelings I have for you inside. But now… look at what happened to us? No, not us, but you and I. I just can’t use the word ‘us’ just yet. 

It’s kinda funny if you think what happened right now. I was the one who used to watch you from the distance, watch your every move, watch you talking and laughing with your friends… but now? I think it’s you who watched me having the exam with my friends, coming into my class on the finals week, smiling to me when you have the chance to. 

My best friend said I’m a fool for waiting for you, for taking this kinda seriously, for thinking too much about this, but I can’t help it, you know. I care about you, I’m just shy to admit it. You have said that you care so much about me and you say a lot of nice things about me… Wow. You are the first person who has the guts to tell me that you miss me… and I’m just too shy to say it back to you.

Okay, let me make it quick. I like how you keep in touch with me all the time. I like how you try to find a time to call me, to just hear my voice because you miss me. I like how you keep me late at night to just watch the soccer with you. I like how we talk and laugh over silly, random things in our conversation. I like how you always say goodnight and other sweet things before I sleep. I like getting phone calls with you. I like talking with you for over 1 hour on the phone. I like how you make laugh with your own silliness. I like how you always come up with weird nicknames for me. I like every little thing about you. 

I think I like you… and I don’t know when I will say it to you like you have always said it to me in every text. 

 Thank you for making my days so colorful. 

Sincerely,

Me.