Randomness

Hi!

Btw, Happy Ied Mubarak 1432 H for all Muslim in the world (it's actually 7 days ago, but whatev. I just gotta say it) :D

And do you guys realize? I just changed my banner again. Well, it sucks but whatev. I just feel like wanna change it. Because the old ones is kinda boring for me :/

Um... I'm not gonna say anything actually. I've been in a bad mood since last night and felt like don't wanna do anything besides crying my eyes out. I know it's random. I just had a chat with Alya and it only makes it worst. I actually don't know what happened to me but... yeah. This is me. I can't even figure out myself. Oh gosh. I gotta stop.

See ya!

P.S. My current mood:

Hung Out with Alya and Dea :D

Hello!!!!!!!!!! So, I'm officially a high school student right now and it's kinda fun! Well, not really. The teachers give us a lot of homework to do and it keeps me busy all the time. Being a high school student ain't easy, I know :( on the other side, my junior high friends and I went to the separate school. It's saddening :(

But, I got a time today and went to Dea's house to hang out with Alya and the others. Well, the plan was Bebe, Miga, Endah, and the others were going to come.... but they didn't show up. Okay, that's fine. Actually, I'm still at Dea's right now. Let me tell you what they're doing right now. Alya is lying on the couch with my phone on her hands and looking up at some pics of her and her ex and laughing at it. Dea is playing her own laptop, twittering, and downloading some things. What a day!

Btw, we took some pics! Wanna see it?

Dea, Me, and Alya! :D

The last one is kinda crazy. Just ignore it xD

By the way, that's all I'm planning to say. So, have a great vacation to all my Indonesians friends because we just got another 2 weeks of holiday! Yeay! Basically, have a great day for everyone! See ya!

Blur

Hi, there! :)

Holiday is almost over for me and I only have a few days left before school starts. So, I'm a high school student right now. To be honest, I'm freaking out right now. I have a lot of things about high school in my mind. I'm paranoid about the things that will happen to me in the first day of school. I can't stop thinking about the seniors. Every time I think about the seniors, bad things cross to my mind. What will they do to me and the others freshmen?? It's a paranoia of the first day of school.

So, last Sunday, was the first day I stepped my feet at 3 Senior High. I kept telling myself that every thing is gonna be alright and they won't do something that could hurt myself and the others. But still, in the back of my mind, I still have the thoughts of the evil seniors and some things bad about the orientation. Sometimes, I ask myself if I were crazy or something because I can't stop thinking about it until now.

I mean, the orientation is going to be held for a week, including a camp to Cibodas. Well, camping is not a problem for me because I have Dea, who's in the same class with me, and the others. Okay, actually, these all aren't really a problem to me. I have something that I think is worse.

Sometimes, I can see it in my head when I walk in the school hallway. Seniors send glares to me, people talk about me, nobody want to be friends with me, and stuff like those that lead myself into a craziness!! I swear I almost cry when I'm thinking about it. It's like, high school is a nightmare for me. It's like, every things will turn out bad or really BAD in high school. Damn that paranoia!

Ok so I don't wanna talk about it anymore because it sucks and I just don't wanna talk about it. Well, see ya. Wish me luck for my new school O:)

When Future Takes Over Your Mind

Well, hi! I know it's been a month or more since the last time I blogged here and I'm sorry for that. Actually, I don't even know if people are really reading and checking my blog, but whatsoever. I just like posting here and I'll keep posting even it's only once a month. Well, it depends on my mood. Lately, I'm not in a very good mood. The things that will boost my mood up are only music, Mibba, and somethings about my family. Anyway, let's talk about the thing based on the tittle of this entry.

So, it's already summer, that's what people called it, or 2 weeks short vacations for me and I've been staying in my lovely hometown, Jakarta for like 3 days. Yesterday, my Dad got a call from my Aunt that she wants to talk with me and my brother. Actually, I had no idea about the thing she's going to talk about, but I know I have to meet and talk with her because the curiosity got the top of me. FYI, I can't handle my curiosity and I get curious so easily. Ok back to the topic.

At noon, I got at her house and yada yada yada. I'm too lazy to talk about that intro or whatsoever that called. Let's just get to the point. Oh by the way, this post may be long because I'm going to write what's in my head these few hours. Actually, I'm planning to write it on my diary (what? don't say that you guys aren't writing on diary again) but because I totally forgot to bring it, I decided to just write it here.

My Aunt and her daughter talked with me (and my brother) about the whole high school and college thingy. To be honest I'm so interested in that topic. I just love it when people ask or talk to me about my future and my plans for it. It makes me feel that I have somebody that care about me and my future. They told me to keep my grades up in high school and if I can, I would join AFS. Actually, I don't know what AFS stands for and I'm too lazy (again) to Google it, so you guys can totally Google it and find it by yourself :D (my laziness has taken over of me :p)

AFS. That's the point why I'm writing right now. I got so curious about that AFS thingy and decided to Google it when I got at my Grandma's this evening. Well, my brother has told me a little about AFS before, but I didn't really get his point that time.

So, I opened the official website of AFS and got the official website of AFS's foundation in Indonesia or something like that. Well, you might get my point on that last sentence. So, let's keep on going. I read the news and you know, just surfed that website, trying to get a lot of information about the student exchange stuff. The most interesting thing about study abroad is I'm going to get new experiences, friends, and get out of my comfort zone. That's it. It'll be challenging to live overseas without your parents and sister/brother for 10, almost 11 months. I've been dreaming about that since my brother told me about that which is 2 years ago.

I read Nadya's blog, she's one of the students that got the opportunity to study in Florida, USA for 10 months. I was stunned and a bit shocked when I read her blog. Well, I know that it'll be a long way to get that, but I didn't think that it would be that long. She beat about eight hundreds people, maybe more or less. Then I think about it.

I'll have to beat about eight hundreds people from my own country and I don't think if I can beat them. They must be very smart students on their school while I'm not as smart as them. It's just.... you know, I feel like if I still go for it, it would only waste my time and money because I think I won't get it. I already feel hopeless by only reading her blog about her journey. Yes, I know that I may get a lot of supports from my big family if I try. But what if I fail? I would only make them disappointed, right? :(

Okay, I'm going to stop here before I get too far 'cause I'm already dying and crying a little bit inside by only thinking about it. It sucks :( So, see ya on the next post!

Peace out!,

Lela :)

A Fifteen Years Old Girl

FIFTEEN!!!!! WOOT! :P

Hello! So, today is the twentieth day of May and that means my birthday has passed. My birthday is on May 17th. Well, you guys have no idea how excited I was that day. On the night before my birthday, I stayed up until 11.30 PM which was kind of odd to me because I'm not getting used to stay up late. Well, I was just talking with my brother and checking my Twitter. I talked to Riny and some other friends on Twitter and Michelle planned to countdown my birthday (which was not working good because we fell asleep :D).

The next morning, I woke up at 6 AM which was odd again because I only slept for 6 hours! I checked my phone and got 5 texts! I checked it all and it's from Ajeng and Amira. So, Ajeng text me at midnight while Amira text me at 5 AM, an hour before I woke up. I replied all the texts with a very wide smile on my face. I checked my Twitter and I got so many replies! I replied them one by one and still, a smile plastered on my face. I was so excited that day!

At about 12 PM, my classmates came and they brought me a birthday cake! Well, actually it's not a birthday cake but I like it better to call it like that because there's a candle on it! Here's the photo:

I look bad in that pic :/ hahaha it was so hot and I was sweating like crazy!! :D

I admit it I was so happy that day, but on the other side I was so nervous as hell! I know that my friends had planned something for me! I know it because they're so creative like that! :D So, I thought the worst thing that they could possibly do to me. In my head, the worst thing they could possibly do to me is spraying me with water, flour, and egg. But actually, it's worst than I thought before. Well, they did spray me with water, flour, and unknown water that I didn't care what it contained. But there was something else. No. Scratch that. There was somebody else.

Okay. By typing those words, it's already giving me goose bumps. So, here's the story. Endah told me that her parents were taking her to go swimming and told her to meet them outside the house complex. I agreed and we started to walk, leaving my other friends at my house. I waited for Endah's parents for about 10 minutes and then she said "my parents are about to come. you can go." and then I said, "okay, then. be careful. and thanks for coming today!" I left her and walked back to my house. When I got at my house, Ulfah screamed, "let's take some pics with the birthday girl." and I was like "sure. why not? I'm the birthday girl, aren't I?"

So I stood near Ulfah and when Alya started the countdown, BAM! I felt something on my hair. I swore under my breath and before I could say anything, my friends were spraying me with flour, water, and unknown water. I just stood there and let my friends spraying me. When they were done, I realized something. MY PHONE!!! MY JEANS WAS SOAKING WET AND MY PHONE WAS STILL IN THE POCKET!! AAAAAH!! (soooooo over dramatic :p)


Chacha grabbed my phone and my friends told me to clean up myself. I sighed in defeat and walked back to the inside my house. I walked to my bathroom and when I turned on the light, somebody else showed up! I screamed from the top of my lungs and ran to the outside, Luckily, I didn't slip because that time. I ran again and you know what, my neighbors were watching me! Okay, that's bad. Long story short, I got cleaned up and met that somebody else again outside my bathroom. I was like "oh come on. stop it. it's not funny anymore!" I walked to my room and slipped! and until now, my right leg is still hurting bcs of that. poor me :S

THAT'S A WRAP! But before I go, let me say something pleaseee :D

First, I wanna say thank you to God for still letting me to celebrate my birthday!

Second, Thank you so much for my parents and family! I have the best family ever! :D

Third, A huge and special thank you for my brother! Yep. Thanks for your little surprise (he said that he wouldn't come home but actually, it's only a set up from him and my parents :/) and the notebook you gave to me. You're the best brother I've ever had! :D


Fourth, Thank you to all my best friends, friends, Rushers, OJD, and the others for the birthday wishes. You guys are the best!

Fifth, A special thanks for my classmates. Thank you so freaking much for the surprises. You guys are the best!! Love, hugs, kisses :*

And the last, thank you so much for reading this post! LOVE YOU!! <3


P.S. ------> CLICK ME!! <------ that IS the "somebody else".