Rambling

I'm tired. 

Actually, that's all I feel right now. That word describes how I feel all this time. It's been a few months since I officially became a high school student and I feel really tired. I mean, 'tired' is the only word that describes EVERYTHING -,-

School's been REALLY hectic and I'm about to tear all my hair out right now :/

Since I became a high school student, my life is way too organized. If you ask me where I would be at 7pm,  I'm gonna answer that I would be sitting in my room, doing all my homework with my laptop & music on. If you ask me where I would be at 1pm, I'm gonna answer that I would be on my way to home.

I actually don't know what to write at this moment. My brain is just too asdfghjkl and all I needed to see is just this blank page of a new entry. I honestly think that I should really update this blog after a few weeks.... so here I am right now.

All I really need is a few weeks of holiday. I really need to relax, get some proper sleep, have fun with my family and such. I need to take a break from all of this stuff.... but I know I would only get a few weeks of holiday on December which is still a month away. I really need to watch some brand new movies at the cinema and buy some new books!!!! But yeah, I still have to wait until December because if I buy it right time, I would get distracted by those things and wouldn't touch my text books. Poor me.

Um I think that's all from me. Like I said before, I think I don't have anything to write so I just ramble about everything. Thanks for reading and I'm so sorry for all the wrong grammar, spelling, and such. You can tell me, though, if you find those shits in this post or my previous posts. Constructive comments are always welcomed and appreciated ;)

Peace out!

Lela :)

High School Kid

High school is just so tiring. I get a lot of homework everyday and count those exams and silly quiz every single day. And the pressure I get at class and school.... Phew. It's just... I'm glad to be a high school kid but I never thought that it would be this hard and tiring. Sometimes I really feel like wanna pull my hair out. It's just.... so frustrating sometimes :(

 So, I've became a high school kid for about 2-3 months right now.... and I don't know how to feel about that. Well, yes, I'm happy. Heck, I'm so happy about it. I got into my brother's former high school and it's just... I think I made my parents a bit proud of me by becoming a student there. Well, I don't really have to worry about that anymore, but the future is the thing I'm worrying about right now.

Again, I'm in the middle of making discussion that would affect on my future. And my teacher just said it to me yesterday morning. I was in the middle of talking with Dea and suddenly the teacher called me along with 3 other students to the teacher's room. I was so surprised that day because I never became one of those students who got called to the teacher's room. And that time, in only a few minutes, I had to make up my mind on everything. I just said 'yes' with tears welling up in my eyes and a grey big cloud in my head. It was so frustrating.

When I got home, I was bombarded by questions from my parents. They asked me if I want it or not, and yeah, they gave me a pep talk about that stuff. They told me to make sure that I make a right decision for myself. Hah. My life couldn't be any worse than this -____-"

OKAY. So let's just stop this. I just gotta have this thing out of my head sooner so yeah I decided to just write here. Besides, I'm just so in the mood to write :) By the way, wish me luck for my exam, test, quiz, and everything related to school :p lol. Soooooo see ya!

Love,

Lela.

Randomness

Hi!

Btw, Happy Ied Mubarak 1432 H for all Muslim in the world (it's actually 7 days ago, but whatev. I just gotta say it) :D

And do you guys realize? I just changed my banner again. Well, it sucks but whatev. I just feel like wanna change it. Because the old ones is kinda boring for me :/

Um... I'm not gonna say anything actually. I've been in a bad mood since last night and felt like don't wanna do anything besides crying my eyes out. I know it's random. I just had a chat with Alya and it only makes it worst. I actually don't know what happened to me but... yeah. This is me. I can't even figure out myself. Oh gosh. I gotta stop.

See ya!

P.S. My current mood:

Hung Out with Alya and Dea :D

Hello!!!!!!!!!! So, I'm officially a high school student right now and it's kinda fun! Well, not really. The teachers give us a lot of homework to do and it keeps me busy all the time. Being a high school student ain't easy, I know :( on the other side, my junior high friends and I went to the separate school. It's saddening :(

But, I got a time today and went to Dea's house to hang out with Alya and the others. Well, the plan was Bebe, Miga, Endah, and the others were going to come.... but they didn't show up. Okay, that's fine. Actually, I'm still at Dea's right now. Let me tell you what they're doing right now. Alya is lying on the couch with my phone on her hands and looking up at some pics of her and her ex and laughing at it. Dea is playing her own laptop, twittering, and downloading some things. What a day!

Btw, we took some pics! Wanna see it?

Dea, Me, and Alya! :D

The last one is kinda crazy. Just ignore it xD

By the way, that's all I'm planning to say. So, have a great vacation to all my Indonesians friends because we just got another 2 weeks of holiday! Yeay! Basically, have a great day for everyone! See ya!

Blur

Hi, there! :)

Holiday is almost over for me and I only have a few days left before school starts. So, I'm a high school student right now. To be honest, I'm freaking out right now. I have a lot of things about high school in my mind. I'm paranoid about the things that will happen to me in the first day of school. I can't stop thinking about the seniors. Every time I think about the seniors, bad things cross to my mind. What will they do to me and the others freshmen?? It's a paranoia of the first day of school.

So, last Sunday, was the first day I stepped my feet at 3 Senior High. I kept telling myself that every thing is gonna be alright and they won't do something that could hurt myself and the others. But still, in the back of my mind, I still have the thoughts of the evil seniors and some things bad about the orientation. Sometimes, I ask myself if I were crazy or something because I can't stop thinking about it until now.

I mean, the orientation is going to be held for a week, including a camp to Cibodas. Well, camping is not a problem for me because I have Dea, who's in the same class with me, and the others. Okay, actually, these all aren't really a problem to me. I have something that I think is worse.

Sometimes, I can see it in my head when I walk in the school hallway. Seniors send glares to me, people talk about me, nobody want to be friends with me, and stuff like those that lead myself into a craziness!! I swear I almost cry when I'm thinking about it. It's like, high school is a nightmare for me. It's like, every things will turn out bad or really BAD in high school. Damn that paranoia!

Ok so I don't wanna talk about it anymore because it sucks and I just don't wanna talk about it. Well, see ya. Wish me luck for my new school O:)